Alone

                  I lost my dad April 7th, 2013. He lived his last 10 years in a great deal of pain and suffering but never did I hear him complain. I didn't get to see him a great deal and for that I will forever be sad. We lived several hundred miles apart and my finances have not been great , my health lousy and my own life in turmoil. I took his passing very hard. He was my best friend. I feel so alone. Today's poem expresses the loneliness that engulfs me. in time I will get through it, I just need time to fill the void, for now I will fill it with happy memories of dad.

                                                                          Alone

 

I came here today because I am feeling so alone

I cannot stop the tears from falling down my cheeks

Nor can I stop the thoughts that build up inside

Of how hard life has become without you dad.

 

People say I have to carry on, tell me how is that done? 

Where do I turn to find the strength to be again?

Can you hear my teardrops as they fall

Do you feel my sadness that controls me?

 

I want to break free from the fears that engulf me

To run away from the harsh  reality of life -

To live in a land where there is no pain or suffering

And breathe in happiness until I fall asleep.

 

Is there such a place or time in store for me?

I fear I am destined to wander endlessly alone

No matter where I travel it is not a home

Trembling I fall upon bent knees and pray.

 

I know you are here for me yet I forget to come

To you in my times of need, to lend a listening ear

Or is it that I choose not to hear what you say -

Unyielding  and stubborn is not the way.

 

I will strive to become a better child worthy of love

From you, and to remember that I am never alone

Unless I choose to be...humbly I kneel before you

And ask for your love and guidance to carry on.

 

Poems My Way ~ Valrie   05/20/2013

 

 

Have a wonderful day.